Sunday, April 26, 2009


The backyard did indeed get mowed yesterday. Ashlee started trimming the hedge and I did the edging. The dogs got a lot of run time going back and forth at the fence and after I was finished I went and sat on the ground with them on their side of the yard. They are diggers, so yes they have their side of the yard and I have my side of the yard. I split it almost in half with them.

Thursday, April 23, 2009


I hate mediation. Having to get in someones face and tell them they are an asshole is a new thing for me. I can do it, don't get me wrong. My grandmother just raised me to not be rude.
There have been a couple of times when circumstances have miffed me off (read pissed me off) enough to make me go off on someone. Look, if you dont have a purpose, no job......I dont sympathize about your gender, you have no income and you cant clean up behind yourself........dude get over it. Bathe.. At least be responsible and don't piss me off. Learn about body language....its a universal communication. If i take the keyboard and mouse away at night then I dont want you to use my computer. If I'm not at home then I guess you cant ask me if its ok to use my computer. So I don't want to come home and see my computer turned on with you on it. Now.....the people in my family are extremely empathic No emotion is stupid or silly.......I never want to hear that from you. Don't make me turn you into a cricket.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009



Originally I had six yellow metal reflectors at the corner due to my streets zig zag construction. Last night my neighbor Susan brought the last surviving reflector back home to me. It seems someone (a bored teen most likely) had uprooted it and thrown it into her backyard. I had started collecting rocks for my corner to keep people from driving across my yard and the reflectors at least warned them to slow down in the dark. I suppose I can put the reflector back out for safetys sake; however I might need to get some reflective paint for my last acqusition "Killer". I really need to write Killer on the side of this. Lets see the little darlings steal this.

Saturday, April 18, 2009


It is spring here and I feel that this may finally be my time to branch out and change once again. We all invent ourselves by our thoughts and deeds. It is time that I left bits and pieces of myself in the past and moved on. Various people have helped me through the dark times without knowing. I thank all of those folks who helped me kill my monsters, my grief, my shortcomings. It is time to lay down my ghosts and become renewed.

It is unimaginable that Mike has been gone almost 5 years now, Jo and Bill 2 years and now Davey is gone as well. The veil is thinning I can feel it. That is why I'm blue this morning. Walpurgisnacht approaches. I will smudge the house once again, feed the Fae and visit the cemetery. Once that is done I can move on with my life.

Monday, April 13, 2009

home repairs

My trusty wrench and I attacked the upstairs bathroom yesterday. There are now new guts in the toilet and it is filling properly. In the meantime I am dealing with the yearly ant invasion. Every spring when the rains start they start trying to take over the house. Guess its time to spray with abandon.

Friday, April 10, 2009

long weekend

This is the first time I have ever worked somewhere that gave me Good Friday off as a paid holiday. It is rather nice and puts a holiday into a part of the year that I always thought was too long between holidays. It looks like the weather will be nice for any egg hunts that go on. My Brigid is just walking, I will have to ask Sean if they are having one for her.

Most likely I will be outside most of my holiday, I think I need to do the first mowing. The little seeds I planted are starting to sprout and it won't be long before I start planting. I'm going to need to put them out on the patio for more light.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

statistics counter

I have this little hit counter at the bottom of the page. It tells me how many people looked at my musings everyday. It also tells me where those hits originated from. The IP address is very visible along with the time and place.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

“He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.”

Elbert Hubbard quote

Monday, April 6, 2009


Why did I join Facebook? Oh yes, it was to keep up with the kids. Now I remember.

The numerous questions should have reminded me or at least given me pause long enough to stop typing. My politican affiliation? My religion? My likes and dislikes, reading list, music etc.

I am not looking for new friends or to pick up old friends who wandered away or most likely had a door shut in their face. I am not one to forget why I lost someone.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Sunday Morning

Looks like its going to be one of those overcast, moody, slow days. You know the kind I mean. I have a chicken thawing in a bowl of cold water for dinner tonight, the cats keep checking it out. I think I will go ahead and put my new Persian Lilac out on the porch in case it rains. I haven't planted it yet because of the cold snap and it has lived in the bathtub off and on for a couple of weeks now because I don't want the cats to nibble on it. After I move it I think I will take a long shower and then fix brunch. I'm thinking omelet with cheddar and asparagus from the garden. I planted my onion sets yesterday and started some seeds in peat pots. Cherokee Purple and Black Krim tomatoes and some lemon cucumbers and a petite cantaloupe, all heirloom seeds. So far I have volunteer lettuce and potatoes coming up in the garden and I think I saw marigold seedlings out there yesterday. I always have marigolds come up by themselves. This year I plan to give many of them away as they nearly took over the garden last year.

Friday, April 3, 2009


My HR lady told me today that I had to fill out a LOA form to get paid for the 2.5 hours I was at the doctor’s office. So I’m thinking that I will sneak the form in on top of my boss’s desk while she is out..except that when I’m almost into her office she shows up. Talk about timing. My whole day has been mistimed, but that’s another story.

Ah well, count my blessings and go on.

Looks like I may get to work in the garden this weekend. I need to trim the hedge too, bet I can find a girl to do that for me.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

The list

I emailed myself a list at work today so that I would remember everything I had been thinking about writing down.

The first thing was the fact that I have come back into contact with so many people that I used to know here lately. It is really a strange feeling. I registered on and now I have 20 signatures in my guestbook. I don’t remember having that many friends in high school. Of course I didn’t sign up for the gold membership yet because I’m not really sure I want to get involved just yet. Then last night Erin located someone I used to talk to all the time on AOL 10 years ago. Going from a very solitary person to this is just a little different feeling.

Then there is the matter of my boss (who swears she does not like to micromanage things). The woman now wants to pencil in our doctor appointments into her calendar in advance. I’m not sure exactly what is up with that. I managed to see my doctor on Tuesday and it was the same day I made the appointment and it just didn’t sit right with her. I’m almost afraid to make my dental appointment; she may bring out the nukes. This post has been edited.....after reading about bloggers rights. cough, cough, cough.....hairball as my cats would say.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


I went in for my blood pressure checkup yesterday and it seems that my diet and exercise changes have done their job. My doctor cut my meds in half. Strange, it didn't seem to much change the amount I paid for the script though. My script only decreased by $5.00. For half the dose??? This somehow just doesn't seem right.